How do YOU make your moments matter? I’ve been reading articles and self-help guides that say that you need to be aware of your world, your goals, your dreams all the time in order to become successful with your gifts. I just recently recognized that I can’t MAKE my moments matter, but they end up mattering because they were a moment in my life. Overdoing, over-planning, almost obsessing on everything being important and useful. I found it becomes overwhelming, a waste of energy and, ha!, a waste of moments. They happen and do matter, with or without my assistance. When I realized this, I became incredibly appreciative and grateful for the comprehension. I’m still wondering where all of these moments are leading to, but I’m so very glad for the realization that I had.
This ah-ha moment arrived for me yesterday, as I was taking pictures in my yard. The flowers and the leaves are coming out like I’ve never seen before. We’ve had an unusually long, harsh winter for central Missouri, and the plants seem as though they’re also ecstatic that warmer weather is finally here. I was shooting pictures from different angles, close-ups, and even got some wonderful semi-posed shots of my son. This was amazing to me, as he’s been camera phobic for a few years. He was such a ham when he was a wee guy–even telling me to take his picture when he finally had the words to use! When he started school, he became camera shy. As in wouldn’t ALLOW his picture to be taken easily. When he was little, I made sure I did not have a camera in his face constantly, as I knew that was too intrusive for all of us. Has this happened to you, where your child made an actual choice to not be photographic? I’m not sure what transpired in his brain, but it sucked! I’d been taking great pictures of him for years, providing a growth and adventure history for us to look at and enjoy. Then, NADA. It was so challenging for me since I loved catching special moments in parenthood, childhood, life adventures… I started focusing on scenery and nature shots, but missed taking pictures of my “bouy” and my hubby. Hubby had never really liked having his picture taken, but having a son helped him relax from that aversion since we loved looking at the results so much. Once my son didn’t want his picture taken, neither did my husband! It was such an odd lag in my photographs, and one that actually saddened me deeply. Now, my photography bug seems to be back in full force; maybe that’s what has made it ok for my guys to have their pictures taken again.
While I’ve been off work with my fragrance sensitivity, I’ve turned my energy back toward photography. I recognized how alive I felt yesterday, for the first time in forever! My yard became my inspiration. My son is my inspiration. The results of my photography are my inspiration. Knowing that my moments happen with or without my assistance and realizing that my true job is to simply acknowledge them not only inspires me, but also removed a large burden of finding my life success. What’s your inspiration for your creativity, your life-energy, your moments? I’m so excited to feel this and truly hope you can/do too!
With warm wishes for your journey,