Ends and Beginnings, All Mixed Together

What I am writing today is based of free writing/unlocking the mind for 20 minutes.  I’m supposed to post even if it’s not done.  Just free write.  My head actually needs this.  There’s so much change going on in my immediate life.  Hubby started a new job today!  It’s his biggest one yet (senior executive chef for a huge hospital,) and he’s so excited about it. It’s really cool to watch this happening to him/us.  🙂

I went to lunch with my former co-workers as it was their last lunch out for the school year and I was asked to join them.  Bittersweet feelings–I feel like I was missed, yet haven’t had contact with them hardly at all during my 5 1/2 months away for my fragrance hyper-sensitivity.  They DID respect my sensitivity and were as fragrance free as possible so they could hug me.  And THAT was awesome.  Made me realize that this job is REALLY over. ohmygoodness.  This is so hard.  😦  Three others in the department are also leaving; one transferred to another school in the district, one got a promotion to administration and one is moving back to her hometown to teach there.  Out of 8, four are leaving.  That’s a lot of upheaval.  My immediate supervisory principal is retiring this year as well, so it’s going to be crazy-nuts next school year.  

This past Saturday, I attending a going away party for a family at my church that’s moving to Washington D.C.  In their household, the eldest daughter graduated high school, the other daughter finished middle school and starts high school in the fall, the dad turns 50 in a few days, the mom got the fabulous job in D.C., but has to uproot the family from the family homestead where she personally grew up and has always lived, leaving friends and family behind.  It was hard, because I was just getting to know them and their wonderful selves. But we’re assured we have a place to stay when we head to D.C.!! 

On Sunday, my minister, the only one I can call “mine” as an adult, gave his last sermon at our church because he and wife are moving from Missouri to Florida, so he can minister at another church.  This was a hard choice for him, but he feels like he’s taken the congregation as far as he can, and now wants to bring another congregation to their best levels. I thought ministers stayed until they retired or died, once they found a place that felt like home. I actually feel betrayed.  Happy for them, yet betrayed.  He’s WHY I’ve stayed at this church.  If there were guests in the pulpit, I seldom attended, because I like HIS sermons.  Not happy. This is hard too. 

I went to the doctor today about my broken foot, fearing that I’d get the news that I need surgery. Well… we don’t know and I have to wear my boot for another 3 weeks.  However, I can put more weight on it, in fact need to, to strengthen it.  CRAP.  It’s springtime, almost summer.  I have yard work and gardening and house projects that I wanted/needed to do before the hellish heat waves arrive.  Hubby and son are tired of being my minions.  Understandable, but I wish they actually knew how much I do NOT ask them to do!!  hahaha!! The news about the foot is ok, but sure isn’t what I was hoping for.  ah well.  The Universe has some sort of plan for me.

AHHHH–timer went off.  There’s still more in my head!  And I sure don’t feel like I made any profound statements.  lol 

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4 thoughts on “Ends and Beginnings, All Mixed Together

  1. I’m having the same kinds of feelings about church. When I left California I left a wonderful pastor and church. I fit in so well. I left many wonderful friends. I haven’t found that same feeling here. I’m not going to give up and don’t you either.

    • Hubby reminded me that this congregation is also what draws me to this Unitarian Universalist church, after searching for a church home through many denominations for so long. But the minister is who REALLY caught my soul. His new church is so lucky, and we’ll do fine. But change is hard. No, don’t give up–broaden the view! ❤ Thanks so much, Meredith.

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